I've never been a skinny girl, but recently I've seen pictures of myself tagged on Facebook, and I just look unbearable. I can't stand how big I've gotten. The problem is - this is less than I used to weigh, and I'm still huge and disgusting. I'm undiagnosed, but I've got Binge Eating Disorder with on and off periods of Anorexia. I always lose weight during the anorexic periods, but I can't stick to it. I always end up binging. I hate myself, and I've tried to rip the fat off of my stomach with my fingernails. I've made myself bleed a couple of times, and it feels sort of nice. As a recovered self harmer, I'm trying to keep myself from doing it, but it's so hard. I'm just so lost, and no matter what I do, the pounds just don't seem to come off. Every time I'm around a male, I just get so self conscious that I want to cry. I think they might be hitting on me, but then I remember that I'm fat and disgusting. Nobody wants me.
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saw my best friend's daughter today while driving to work. she was wearing the skimpiest little outfit ever doing her morning jog. got the hardest boner in the world. she's like have my age though faq my life
so i'm a chick. but i wish i was born a guy. i hate being a girl and every inch of me just wants to wake up one day and be the opposite sex. i like guys. i like some girly type things. but f*** i know for A FACT that if i was a guy my life would have been ten times easier. even when people would find out im gay. im a girl who wants to be a guy who wants to be with guys. f*** me.
I'm conflicted. This girl that I've been hanging out with know that I like her. Her parents don't know that I'm gay and don't hesitate to invite me over. They think I'm a great influence to their daughter. However, she is experimenting and I am actually spending nights with her and we end up making out and touching each other. She is a great kisser and possible the greatest loss to the lesbian world. She is a world class masseuse and gives me massages all the time. I love her. But she is not a lesbian nor is she bisexual. Our "relationship" is kept between us. I want her to be mine, but she thinks that I'm just a play toy... I need help. We are both 16 and go to the same high school in virginia.
In college I had a teacher that seemed like she wanted to use me for sex. I wanted to bang her bad but I wanst 100% sure she wanted to have a sexual relation with me so I didnt approach her. I wonder now how it would have played out if I just had the balls to do something with her.